Grief: Counter-Cultural Advice

WeepingUpdated 5/17

It is not unusal at all for the person who is ill or the family and friends that surround the patient to have some profound grief. Sometimes this is called anticipatory grief, because death has not come, yet we are still grieving. It is surely very natural to have grief around any terminal illness. This article is written by a grief counselor with Mt. Hood Hospice who has led many, many families through this process. I am very grateful to her for sharing this with us.

I would also like to direct you to a podcast I just stumbled upon (5/17) that deals with grief written by a person who suffered like we all suffer and reached out to help us. It’s called Terrible, Thanks for Asking (her response whenever someone asks how are you?).  Go to https://www.apmpodcasts.org/ttfa/ 

This entry is written by Emilie Cartoun, Director of Bereavement Services, Mt. Hood Hospice

Energy! Activity! Youthful appearance! Vibrant health! Look at any magazine at the check-out counter for an overview of important cultural values. You may also see the importance we place on competition, left-brain logic, positive thinking and material success. These are wonderful values, but they can leave us ill-equipped to understand and support each other when times are tough, such as in times of grief and loss. Many of the complications that arise for us around the natural processes of grief, and death and dying, come from the clash between the inevitable realities of old age, sickness and death and the values bequeathed to us by a vigorous, forward-looking society. Grief is counter-cultural.

Many of us express this clash in the vocabulary of confusion. “I think I’m losing it.” “I feel like I’m going crazy.” Underlying the feeling that what we are experiencing is not normal is a terrifying snake pit of difficult questions. What is the difference between acceptance and “giving up”? Where does hope fit in? How do we incorporate positive thinking into a realistic plan for the future when we have a life-limiting disease? How do we open our hearts to the healing properties of love and forgiveness when all our strategies for coping with illness are framed in terms of war and combat?

There is a wealth of excellent advice available for grievers. Google “advice for the bereaved” for much helpful information. Eat when hungry, sleep when tired. Try to get some exercise. Find someone to talk to. Stay busy. Talk to your spiritual advisor. These are good suggestions – we should follow them. Here are some other, counter-cultural suggestions that we are less likely to find in lists of tips for grievers:

Develop the capacity for stillness

Busy is the word of the day. Busy is the answer we give when someone asks us how we are. Busy is a sacred cultural value. Busy is the armor we put between our experience and our heart. When we stay busy, we don’t have to feel. Don’t misunderstand – staying busy is a fine strategy which works well until we get home at night, or have a break between appointments, or run out of people to have lunch with or rooms to remodel or money to spend. By all means, stay busy if it’s helpful. But also learn how to be still.

Set a kitchen timer for five minutes, sit in a chair and start the timer. Don’t move until the timer goes off. That’s it – that’s the whole exercise. Do this once in the morning and once at night for a month, then go to ten minutes. Five minutes is plenty to start with, unless you don’t have time. Then, as the saying goes, sit for an hour.

Identify your feelings

The above practice will soon give you the space to identify what you are really feeling. Naming these feelings as they kaleidoscope through your mind and body is a powerful and helpful skill. This skill can put enough space between a trigger and your response to give you some options about how to respond.

The Buddha once asked a student, “If a person is struck by an arrow, is it painful?” The student replied, “It is.” The Buddha then asked, “If the person is struck by a second arrow, is that even more painful?” The student replied again, “It is.” The Buddha then explained, “In life, we cannot always control the first arrow. The second arrow is optional.”

In grief, the first arrow is usually sadness and/or profound loneliness. This is quickly followed by the additional arrows of anxiety, shame, embarrassment, guilt, confusion, anger, fear and alienation. They are optional. The practice of naming your thoughts and feelings described above will enable you to distinguish between these arrows – i.e. which feelings are directly connected to your loss and which are reactions to a reaction.

Suspend judgment on yourself and be kind

Most of us have a panel of experts living in our brains passing judgment on everything we think and feel. You will find it a great relief to occasionally give your internal committee of judges a vacation. Sadness is natural. Tears are healthy. Grief, caregiving, pain and illness are exhausting. Rest is necessary. Identify the judgment words you apply to yourself (self-pitying, lazy, stuck, stupid, insecure, etc) and smile gently. Extend to yourself the same kindness and compassion that you would offer a stranger in distress. Become aware of when you use harsh self-talk and without judging it, replace it with kindness. Instead of “Get off the pity pot and get some work done!” try “Gosh, you sound very sad right now. Let’s sit down for a minute and have a nice cup of tea.”

Open your heart to everything, turn away nothing

People who are grieving a death or anticipated losses very often hold many conflicting ideas to be true simultaneously. These conflicts are delusions created by language. Hope does not stand in opposition to acceptance, or positive thinking to realism. When we get a routine physical we hope that the results show no diseases. When there is a pathology found, our hope is that there is a treatment to cure it. When our doctors cannot offer us any treatment, what do we hope for then? For comfort? For reconciliation? For forgiveness? If “giving up” means casting out hope then we never have to give up on anything, we simply need to redefine what hope means to us in our new situation.

Find a way to share as openly and honestly as you can

You may have been taught to soldier on and to be “strong” in times of difficulty, and you may have concluded that strength means not showing any feelings. Think about what strength means to you. Journaling, support groups, or just one like-minded friend to mirror your experience can go a long way towards dispelling the second arrows of alienation and stigma attached to death and dying. It turns out we are all mortal, have all suffered losses and all experience fear. You can call this a pity party, or you can call it compassionate support.

Honor the logic of the heart

This means to be your own expert. You don’t need anyone to tell you how to feel, and how you feel needs no defense or explanation. It might not make sense to the linear logic of your left brain but, it turns out, the left brain has some serious limitations.

We all live with the expectation of death. The lucky among us will see 80-90 summers. This is worth contemplating. Beyond the fear and sadness is it possible there is something else – an appreciation for the shocking and unlikely adventure of human life and for our fellow travelers?

Here is what the ancient Persian poet Rumi writes:

THE GUEST HOUSE

 This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice.

meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.

Be grateful for whatever comes.

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

— Jelaluddin Rumi

Facing Death

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